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Feeling Vague…

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I’ve not really been here over the past couple days. I feel very vague and am completely utterly exhausted. I don’t really know what to say. There are things floating around in my head but it’s so foggy and useless at the moment I don’t think I can begin to form sentences and write a proper blog entry. Another day perhaps.

I just feel overwhelmed by everything at the moment. I don’t know why. This week is scaring me. Too many meetings, med changes, doctors to see, phone calls to make, things to do, plans to write… It’s going to be a nightmare. All this preparation for discharge is too much for me.

I can’t comprehend leaving The Priory at the moment. It’s scary. I’ve been here almost 9 weeks now and I don’t know how I can cope with anything else. Normal life exhausts me. I just can’t handle it. I’m so institutionalised and I am safe in my little bubble. The outside world is a whole different ball game and I’m not sure I can do it right now. I can barely do this safe dependant life, let alone my life in the real world. Meep.

Written by intothesystem

Sunday, 19th April 2009 at 8:51 pm

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  1. *hugs*
    I hope it all goes well.
    xx

    Kate

    Sunday, 19th April 2009 at 9:46 pm

  2. I wish I could do something to help x

    Alison

    Sunday, 19th April 2009 at 9:49 pm

  3. Thinking of you lovely even if I am wrapped up in my own little world at the moment. One of my friends accused her dad of molesting her when she was faced with discharge because she didn’t want to go home, in the end it turned out not to be true and now she’s been out a year and is honestly happy. It’s a scary world to begin with but we’ll all be here for you when it’s time to come out. Take care x

    eccedentesiast

    Monday, 20th April 2009 at 12:42 am


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